Tuesday, March 14, 2006

decision time...help!

Okay, so I have two weeks to decide if I am going to stay in Taiwan for another year or not. My contract ends in August so essentially it would be to sign for another year and a half from now. I really do want to come back to Canada, I miss it so much and my trip home really showed me that, plus I really really needed to get away from here and have a break. So now things are okay and I am enjoying it again, however, who is to say that six months down the road I am not going to be cranky all the time again and need another break. And then I will still have a whole year left!

So I could go home, but what to do. I really do like teaching english...I think this could be what I actually want to do. I have been looking at Master's programs but I don't really want to do one yet. I am just begining to see the light from my student loans, I don't really want to go back there yet again. I think I need to at least work a couple of more years before I make myself go back to school. At least now though, I know what I want to do. The question is, will schools in Canada want me to do it for them. I absolutely hate having such low self-esteem. My friend told me tonight to just do it and try. I know I should and I have been looking for jobs but I am just so scared that they will think I am not good enough for them. Hmmmm....I just don't know. Yesterday I was staying, today I am leaving, I wonder what tomorrow will bring.